Feels like so lost out here

Feels like so lost out here
Chasing to find pillars of mistakes spear
Sometimes fast sometimes slow
Its a tug of war between mind and soul

Feels like so lost out here
Scared to open up and share
Why so difficult yet so much dear
Why despite will, there is failure here.

Feels like so lost out here
Hidden in a mask of pretence
Forgotten words were very dear
And the past memories I could not bear.

Feels like so lost out here
One massive knife burried deep in my heart
Endeavoring to feel everyone else in sight
But its bleeding inside for times apart.

Feels like so lost out here
One feeling of grief forever appears
Like a old trunk opened up with fear
Guilty ashamed for what it shows me here !

Feels like so lost out here
Looking around for solace in world
Losing my identity day by day
Still, I walk like a lone observer of my own.